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V-day

So not really sure what im going to do about V-day. And i want to ask her but she seems second guessing about us  spending v-day together  so maybe it wont happen.
guess i wont know till i try

:/

So i screwed up i think.
Either i feel like i pushed my boundaries with her.

it was a mix of fear and panic i just hope i can fix any and all damage before it gets worse

So that just happend...

Well seems my paranoia was not as far fetched as i thaught...fucking pre-cognition hate being right sometimes about things.

anyway my girl friend has been in a depressive state and she thinks its because she hasny been single in so long so she cant have fun and go do things ect ect Basicly got the " maybe we should spend time away from eachother"  sorta talk..

she said it would be tempoary and i trust her

but i hope she know this is putting me into a reacuring nightmare i have had in the past with my other Gfs and im putting my heart and love on the line and in her hands with the promise she made me.  i trust her but doubt and fear always seep into the tiny cracks so this is going to be a hard time for me.

Alone with my thoughts never a good idea

So My paranoia was in an all time high last night. Thankfully im alright now but still it tends to annoy me how much my mind goes of to the worst things i rather not think about at times. Part of the reason i made this blog was to keep my brain occupied and so far its been a good plan.

now with that aside Vampires. {no the Twitard vampires} The Real vampires you know, Bela Ligosi , Alucard, ,  Blade, among other badasses.
but even as badass as they are they are fantasy right? wrong?

now most people who say they believe in vampire get shut down by closed minded people who immiditly jump to the conclusion  that they are speaking about fantasy and the movies.

well it not the case in fact their are real and documented people who drink blood and even drain energy from people.
The Issue with Society is that everyone is TOO ignorant and choose to deny without  even hearing the person out or doing a little digging. that simply how i feel but i wont say im right and i wont say im wrong.

The Vampire Poet Come midnight there is a fright. The full moon brings the children of the night. Dark creatures coming from hell's bowls. The wolves wake the night with their howls. The poet writes his dark rhyme. His heart black as this nights time. His blood lust overcoming his soul. His eyes becoming as dark as coal. His love for the night gives power. And even the moon in his presence will cower. He summons his ghouls up from the mud. His goblet full of his loves' blood. The dark passion of his Vampress' love. Bring the wolves howls from the night above Alas his love shall not last in his heart. For he has been pierced by a holy dart. As his love sees him fall from the hunters stake. She knows for him it was a fatal mistake. The hunter stares at her his soul filled with fear abound. She looks to him hatefully and send out her hounds. The fight end quickly as he did not last. She looks to her love fallen, and gazes at her past. She drinks of his fallen blood and take the stake of holy water. Her hand burns as she thrusts her heart in his honor. This night two children of the dark fall dead. The vampire poet and his Vampress bye his stead. The dark king forever with his night queen. The wolves his slaves forever walk were he had been.

How long? Why do you always tease me. Why do you always torture me. We always enjoy our times together. but its always him you speak of. You told me how you felt about me. I told you my feelings for you. yet its him you chose. yet its him that hurts you. Yelling,screaming,crying. yet your feeling are what your denying. you were shown that signs. I gave you the warnings. You know what you deserve. But you keep what is givin. You know it isnt him. but its me you push to the side. Im not jealous of him. Im not  inpatient. But how long must i wait. how long must i endure. Sigh...

Nights Rebirth The full moon shines its light, Guiding her through the night, She searches for him through midnights hour. Through her fears she enter his dark tower. He greets her with an evil smile. He does not hide his evil guile. She longs for him and his love. As she fallows him in the tower above. He leads her into his dark room. To what seem to be her impending doom. She pleads to him to make her his own. To become of heaven's  damned and hell's disowned. He gladly accepts her offer of blood. To have her join him in deadlihood. Their love begins this night on earth. The beginning of her night's rebirth.

Of Lust or Of Love in my mouth the taste of sweet lips the taste of honey from gentle fingertips tis but a human feeling of love but it is not one i know of but the blood dripping down your neck when i give you my love peck not a taste of honey so fine but that of glorious red wine humans have affections i have my lust sadly human woman is i they trust its a strong hunger like a loud thunder but a hunger to be satisfied that is...i must

In These Days In these days of freedom and hope. There are lies spread to help us cope. The blood of solders spilled in vain. For our freedom they fought but never gained. A government corrupt feeding off that it offered protection. They that cried for help but are offered rejection. The constant blood of the innocent lost i marvel. At how it is bleached out by stone and marble.

Hello  my name is Eizen {no not the guy from Bleach had this name before him}  Im a writer and a poet and ill say i am far from being good at it i make my way. Im in the Art Institute for Visual effects and motion graphics {EPIC} lol. Hope everyone will enjoy reading some of my writings ect.

i plan to make this blog a place to unwind so don't mind my rants. Also this is a place where im free to speak my mind so im sorry if anyone get offended or otherwise confused.

I like to speak my mind and be truthfully.

P.S, i am a vampire XD